Damned, I mean, Thank You + Free Gift!

A gratitude story-poem. PLUS! A resilience-building gift for YOU. For all seasons!

I woke up, 
  mornings. 
My sky, 
  blinding aura. 
My head as 
  icepicks hammering. 
Sweat,
frozen feet
as a limp doll
on the bathroom floor, 
penance for 
  obeying the
  God of 
   Endless
    Doing.
Insides,
 blindly following.
What have I done? 
I've given myself
 a chance
 at perfect. 
For that 
 painful respite, 
 I am grateful.  
I woke up
 mornings.
The sky,
 compressing gray.
Shepherded two
 newly-minted souls:
 go potty,
  hold spoon,
   and again.
Inside,
 stagnant-pond-
 in-waiting.
What have I done?
I've given myself
 a chance
 at motherhood.
For that,
 in numbness,
 I am grateful.


I woke up
 one morning.
The sky
 thundering yellow.
I cried with
 the basement wall,
 moving into
 dark
  divorce
   house.
Insides,
 fresh,
 bleeding.
What have I done?
I've given myself
 a chance
 at healing.
For that,
 in grief,
 I am grateful.


I woke up
 one afternoon,
 laughing
  sun
   embracing.
I cried and
 danced
  with
   joy.
Both sides
 unemployed And
 cared for.
What have I done?
I've given myself
 a chance
 at Truth.
For that,
 in grace,
 I am grateful.


I looked up
 one afternoon,
 picnic lunch
 delight.
Sunshowers
 cascading from her
 angelic hair,
  after
   lingering
    embrace.
My heart
 holding hers.
What have I done?
I've given myself
 a chance
 to know another.
For that,
 in love,
 I am grateful.


I woke up
 one morning,
 green
  summer
   beckoning.
Soaked
 Her in
 with childlike
 wonder
 for each
 leaf,
  twitter,
   ray.
My soul,
 Connected.
What have I done?
I've given myself
 a chance
 at Presence.
For that,
 in peace,
 I am grateful.

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Author: Heidi Esther

Swimmer, cheerleader from the South Side. Three bros, mom and dad Can bait my own hook. Civil Engineer- turned-fundraiser. Mamma of two lights Everyday blessed. Divorce, job loss, plus codependence, Woman- loving-woman awakening. Boundaries, Forgiveness, Patience, & Grace. Today, Tomorrow, New chances for life.

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